Today was a hard day, in a lot of ways. But I really feel like God is big, and loves me, and is in control, and is good. I'm happy about that. A kid at the church I work for killed himself today. I feel so sad for his parents. Someone I am closer with at the church was decent friends with him. Anyway, the email that was passed around to all staff contained these song lyrics, and I LOVED them. I bolded the ones I really loved!

In Christ alone my hope is found. He is my light, my strength, my song
This Cornerstone, this solid ground, firm through the fiercest drought and storm
What heights of love, what depths of peace, when fears are stilled, when strivings cease
My Comforter, my All in All, here in the love of Christ I stand.

In Christ alone who took on flesh, fullness of God in helpless babe.
This gift of love and righteousness scorned by the ones He came to save.
Till on that cross as Jesus died the wrath of God was satisfied.
For every sin on Him was laid. Here in the death of Christ I live.

There in the ground His body lay. Light of the world by darkness slain
Then bursting forth in glorious day, up from the grave He rose again.
And as He stands in victory, sin’s curse has lost it’s grip on me.
For I am His and He is mine, bought with the precious blood of Christ.

No guilt in life, no fear in death, this is the power of Christ in me.
From life’s first cry to final breath, Jesus commands my destiny
No power of hell, no scheme of man, can ever pluck me from His hand
Till He returns or calls me home, here in the power of Christ I’ll stand.

My favorite part of that hymn is the "What heights of love, what depths of peace, when fears are stilled when strivings cease." I love that part, because I'm always trying so hard to control, so so hard. That's why I fear so much. I'm so scared of what will happen if I'm not in control. Slowly, slowly, God is showing me another way. I know that he has me exactly where he wants me, because He's good. And loves me. So much. I'm scared right now. But I know I can trust him. And I'm going to pray hard, and trust. I'm going to try to do something different. I'm going to love. I want my strivings to cease, and to rest in the peace that God has, and have him still my fears. I know he can do it.

Yay for this good song.

Today was a GREATish, haha, day at work. I got to take 18 kids to church from the after-school program. And two of them asked what it meant to be a Christian. I forget that this is the whole reason I do this job. So it's worth it after all.

And I have an amazing boyfriend, just so anyone who reads this knows. And he's hot too. :) That is all.

Amy